FMF: BLAME

 Hello, blog world I haven't been on here in forever, but today's prompt reminded me that I used to love this space. So here goes nothing...

Five minutes to write and one word prompt

Blame, it has been a hard, rough, stressful two weeks. I won't go into details, but suffice to say that I have a lot to learn about management. I could sit here and blame everyone else, but that isn't how the moving forward process works. I instead am here to own my part, I don't believe I am to blame for everything, but what I did was not acceptable, it was a rookie mistake and was more hurtful than helpful. I am moving forward from this and learning. I have actually spent the last two weeks feeling sorry for myself, having a pity party my husband has said, and then picking myself up and moving forward. I have been doing some therapy, some talking to friends, some self-care, some helping others, reaching out and reminding myself that one bump in the road is not my forever it is part of my story but not something to dwell on. I used to say at the office all the time when someone made a mistake, we don't do brain surgery we didn't kill anyone so move on. And I am standing by that, I didn't kill anyone, but I do want to apologize for hurting feelings, because that is hard for me to process. I am a people pleaser much to my detriment usually, but being mean is not something I like I have worked hard in life to not be a mean person. 

Lesson Learned: Don't blame yourself or others, own your part in the story and move forward. Be Better!

Green

 Linking up to Five Minute Friday, this week's prompt is Green

So many meanings one tiny five letter word, perfect for Five Minute Friday

Green as in the color of the fields in the spring

Green under the gills because she is seasick

Green as in the newbie worker

Green thumb

I love new green experiences as they are what you make of them. I can have a terrible time or try something new and see what happens. About 3 years ago we took a little family vacation on our way back from Idaho and we stopped and went zip-lining it was one of those things I was terrified to do. My husband and girls are adrenaline junkies, their wife and mama not so much. Pair that along with the fact that I truly hate heights and ziplining seemed like one of the worst experiences to ever come my way. However after walking thru all the safety stuff having them check and double check and watching the instructor go I thought OH I CAN DO THIS. And I did and it was so much fun, it was exhilarating and peaceful up there above the tree tops. 

Go enjoy some new green experience this weekend.

Enable

 Do you enable them? This is the question that came to mind when I saw the word for today. And the answer is maybe, I enable lots of people in my life to do what they do. Whether that is good or bad will remain a mystery for now. 

I enable my children who are 18 to be children. they are responsible have jobs, keep grades, are respectful engaging and genuinely good. They are seniors in high school, and with COVID have had a rough time junior and senior year haven't been what they should have been. So yes I enable them to grab any opportunity to have regular fun. 

I enable my husband to follow his dreams, because I believe in him. Once he sets his mind to something he might not always take the easy route, but he always takes the route that gets him where he wants to go and live this amazing life we have been blessed with. 

So enabling is not always bad, I don't enable those around me to break the law or hurt others. I enable them to live life, to enjoy the small things, but mostly to make memories. Because when we are gone from earth what we leave behind is the memories. 

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