So I started participating in this new series last week called Five Minute Friday the link is at the bottom of this post. But before I get started I have to say how her one word prompts have just fit into my world so far so perfectly. So here we go...
I am feeling broken lately, this post might be too personal too much to whiny to oh poor pitiful me. But I feel broken. I am not as organized as I have been in the past I am not as on top of my house my kids schedules being a wife anything, I feel behind on everything. The housework I can get over, not being on top of my kids schedules, like missing Lauryn's play at school on Monday really bothers me, I can make excuses and remind myself that no other parents showed up either but that doesn't make me feel any better. Man I need to get my act together.
Then there is the wife issue, lately my husband has been saying I am old and telling me I act old, I have a habit of taking things very personally, and this has gotten me in trouble but him saying this is really hurting my feelings. I know he loves me but sometimes I worry that he is not in love with me that maybe he needs a younger wife one that is more daring, more adventurous, more spontaneous. Oh who the heck knows I just am in a funk lately and having my feelings hurt seems like a good place to lay the blame.
I am broken like so many other people and I want to just admit it and try to fix it. I am not perfect I have no hopes of ever being as that sounds boring, I just want to feel confident in my marriage in my parenting and in life. Lately that seems like a struggle.
Wow for a little honesty and self pity, because I guess in typing this I realize we are all allowed a little self pity, just as long as I am not wallowing in it :)
Funny now I feel like shopping or eating now, but I don't feel as broken. Writing is my release my therapy my down time. Now on to laundry, paperwork, shopping and loving!!
I linked up today with Lisa for Five Minute Friday, come join us!!